That Little Voice Within

When school started, we placed our oldest child (3 1/2 years old) in a government run preschool, free of charge and with 34 other kids. In that first week, there was a little voice within me, saying" This is not the best choice for your boy...The private gan you checked out last year would be a much better fit". But I ignored that little voice and he started class in the government run school. Within 3 days, something happened that made that Little Voice Within SCREAM at me to switch the boy to the private preschool. So I did. And my child is ECSTATIC to go every single day.

Last night, there was a family wedding that we were meant to attend. The plan was to take the older two and leave the baby with a babysitter. The day before yesterday, the baby had gotten three immunization shots and had had a very rough night. He and I had not slept a wink. My hubby was really counting on all of us attending the wedding so yesterday am, I told him I'd wait and see how the baby was acting until noon and then decide, but that Little Voice Within was again SCREAMING at me that the little man would really need his Ema and would not be happy to be left with a babysitter. He seemed to be in better spirits during the day, so I was actually contemplating to stick with the original program of taking the older two and leaving him home. But then came that Little Voice Within again and I just knew I had to listen to it, even though it would be a disappointment to my Hubby. So of he went to the wedding without us and, lo and behold, the little man's immunizations began to drive him crazy. My poor little baby was sobbing non stop for HOURS and it took me forever to console him to the point where he allowed himself to drift away into a deep and peaceful sleep(that unfortunately he awoke from and was again inconsolable for a couple of hours in the middle of the night). Once again, more proof about the unfailing Little Voice Within.


As mothers, we are constantly second guessing ourselves, wondering what would be best for our children, feeling guilty about our choices, hoping we made the right choice, worrying that we didn't. But Mamas, we DO KNOW what's best for our children. That Little Voice Within will never steer us wrong. It's called the Mommy Intuition to some and in my view, it is my Bina Yetera, that extra bit of wisdom that Hashem(G-d) blessed every woman with. Mommies, let's do ourselves and our children a big favor and listen to that Little Voice Within more often. It knows what's best for us and our families.

With Love,

Cigal